So now here I am, being treated like the kid sitting in the front of the classroom answering questions and doing work while the rest of the class snickers because there's a big ol' "Kick Me" sign on his back.
He's been pissed ever since he screwed up, so now he's trying to make other people look as bad as he did. Like it's my fault he went and had breakfast with Anne Stark and gave her that stupid-ass, arrogant quote.
"Friends are honest with each other?" That's crap.
No, it's not. Real friends are honest with each other. Like Josh when he couldn't lie with his face about Hoynes not being the wrong thing...or anything else, for that matter.
Maybe I should go see him before every speech. He would give something away - he wouldn't be able to look me in the eye if there was something going on.
But, then again...I never would've thought he would let this happen without telling me, giving me a heads up. I didn't figure he would've let me just-...I was **standing** there, and I...I was the only one standing. No one else in that room-...
It wasn't just Toby, just Josh...everyone but me. Everyone but me, and this was **my speech!** Ever since we accepted this has been **MY SPEECH!** I worked on nothing else but **this**, which was supposed to be **OUR** speech, the one that would get us more support and better numbers, now we're getting screwed.
I got screwed.
I wasn't hired because I'm Josh's friend or because I was someone's kid brother or because I hung out and they felt sorry for me, I was hired because I'm a speechwriter and I have been since Josh got me.
Unless maybe I wasn't. Who the hell knows anymore?
I honestly don't know what I would've done if Toby hadn't kept me out of the Oval Office. Maybe I would've yelled. Maybe I would've quit. Maybe I would've just sat there while I couldn't find words to express how angry and betrayed I felt.
But what's it matter? It happened in the way that it did and no one can change that and we can't get back the points and support we lost tonight with the GDC.
Toby's wrong - they shouldn't sit down and shut up. It's their responsibility under the theory of pluralism to question what we do and try and get us to do what they want. And sometimes they'll win and sometimes they'll lose, and sometimes **we'll** win, and sometimes we'll lose, but that's how the system of government works. This system I have idolized since I was nine years old.
Toby's wrong.
Go figure.