A Response

Lin


"I got your letter from the postman just the other day
So I decided to write you this song"
Because I Love You (The Postman Song) by Stevie B.

Dear Sam,
I am at a loss at what to say in response to your letter, so I can only offer you my jumbled words and thoughts as they flow from head to pen and finally to paper. Unlike you, I cannot write down my thoughts coherently, so I thought I would just respond to each section.
When I arrived at that particular Dinner, there was no charge in the air. I got no funny feeling in the pit of my stomach telling me the world had changed without me or that I had changed without it. How was I to know my whole world would change in one night? I accepted your teasing and despite my aching feet, I took your hand. You led me out on a dance floor full of people and held me close. I will never forget those precious moments. I have a framed picture in my office to remind me always Then I asked you to take me home. I kissed you goodnight and the rest is history.
I never expected you to kiss me again. I didn't expect a lot of things to follow that night.
You're right, we speak of love more than we should. It isn't important. Does it make any more difference if I'm in love with you versus my loving you? Some would answer yes. They are fundamentally different things, but I digress. My main concern is that we will be friends past this point. I don't want to wake up one morning to find a beautiful friendship, a love, swallowed up by the should-haves and the could-haves. I value nothing in the world more from you than your friendship. Never forget that. I do love you.
My favorite color is blue.
My favorite food is any type of pasta.
My favorite songs are "Can't Take My Eyes Off of You" and "My Eyes Adored You." (I'm a sucker for a good love song.)
My favorite movie is "The Philadelphia Story" and I'm a sucker for a good Jane Austen novel. Anne Rice, for that instance, too.
The rest of my favorites, you will just have to ask me in person. I'm sure we can come up with the answers together.
Sam, I am afraid of getting my heart crushed or even crushing yours, but I refuse to hang on to the chains of days past. We are going to take this a step at a time. We have already had our first dance, date, not to mention multiple kisses. You know inane trivia of what my favorite movies and songs are. I know you have an uncanny ability to remember directions, though you navigate by the stars (yes, Toby told me.) I know your ex and you know mine. The first steps so many budding couples stumble over, we have side-stepped. There is no need to say we have been extremely lucky so far.
Will this be our secret? Obviously, we shouldn't flaunt ourselves anywhere near the Press, but amongst the Staff, do we tell anyone? I am not ashamed of you, but I feel, as of now, it is better to keep anything we might have between us. This is a precautionary measure for both of us.
Sam, I am glad you wrote me because you have given me a chance to straighten out the feelings bouncing inside of me. They have become just a little bit clearer. I have been taught never to say never, but you will never lose me. I want you there with me, sharing in all of my triumphs. I want to let you hold me in your embrace (if you are willing). I want to share in yours as well. I want to be a comfort to you through every moment.
You told me I didn't have to respond to this letter and looking over what I have written, I don't know if it will ever make its way to you. But if it does, I just want to let you know the way I feel. I love you. I want to be with you. I want you to love me unconditionally and I want to do the same for you. And though we aren't any closer to Heaven or Hell, we are a bit closer to peace of mind.
Love,
Claudia Jean (you didn't need to ask)
S.W.A.K.
P.S. My favorite flowers are tulips. And Sam, you know what S.W.A.K. means but you didn't know KISS?

"I got your letter from the postman just the other day
So I decided to write you this song
And just to let you know exactly the way I feel
To let you know my love's for real
Because I love you and I'll do anything
I'll give you my heart, my everything
Because I love you, I'll be right by your side
To be your light, to be your guide"
Because I Love You (The Postman Song) by Stevie B.


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